Drama, Drama, Drama

I was talking to my sister the other day and as I was telling her everything that is going on I just started feeling like I am this HUGE drama queen, and for me that is so the last thing that I want to be. Yes our life has been filled with huge ups and downs ever since I received a call from our doctor on March 29th and I wish so much that the past month could have been just one straight plan that we could stick to but reality is that it wasn't and with everything inside me I know that the next month will be the same, huge ups and downs. I write about what is happening in our lives and right now a lot of it is focused around Jack and his story, but we do have lots of good times inbetween the doctor calls and visits. I know I've said it before but there are amazing things going on... Jack is still pulling up to everything, and I mean everything, and everytime he does there is a huge round of cheers and you can see the pride in his eyes, and the smile on his face is something that just sticks in your heart, he just knows he is doing something that he was afraid of but that he beat, I love to see that look everytime......
Elle has finally come around to soccer and said how much she loves it, even though her playing skills are still the same - she is not totally comfortable with getting right in the middle of the herd to get the ball- but she loves to run back and forth. And finally yesterday I was blessed to be able to go to Elles school for a little mothers day presentation and although Elle was not totally into it she made me this very cute note and necklace which she was so proud to show off to daddy.... It warmed my heart and some days when I look at her I can't believe she is getting so big. She is my little buddy and helper. The day we were up at Primarys I just missed her so much, she is usually one step behind me or right beside me almost all the time everyday, so it was so hard to not have my little shadow there by me at the hospital. She is the best big sister to Jack and I can't wait to see her relationship to her next little sister. She is so ready to have her here, it will for sure be something to see..... And there you have it hopefully our lives will begin to slow and drama will go its own way, but for now this is us call it what you may : )